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anytime of the day...night

near sleep or deep in a task

standing in any picture my eyes make

today I stared

frozen

as I heard what could have been

your cry

except I never heard it.

I guess I meant to say

I felt it.

This year I didn't get out your things.

I passed my hand over them.

knowing it all so completely I can

create it from my own head.

never

never before has such a weight existed

one that is held and lifted to my chest

everyday.

I laid down

with the weight and rested

these last few days.

held you to myself.

Adrienne